Am I living or just existing?

patience is a hard virtue so here is something to hold you over before the grand final.

this is the first ever film i have made, don't judge there will be better!

this film highlights the static and repetition of adolescent. the way everything happens in this uncomfortable force of action. you go and go and go, but when you stop it is not relaxing it feels like a static in your body and a ringing in your ears so you keep going. mourning the works of time and future.

feeling all of this makes me me ponder....

Am I living or just existing? from aaliyah reynolds on Vimeo.

pretentious.TV is almost "on air"

I am not dead don't worry,

but I do feel it.

(not in the melodramatic way I just feel  like i'm moving in slow-motion while everything passes by, I have been having a love/hate relationship with "time")

But that is not what this update is for,

The construction of this website is almost done
and this is what you have to look forward to

it will be a website/channel that is  film based, but will included writing pieces, soundtrack playlist, and now audio
readings/talks.
 This website will be the epitome of "pretentious"
a place to be artistic, but hauntingly honest, it will romanticize the  amazing things of being on the earth and the things we hide to keep ourselves balance, the things that make our breathing heavy. we need all these things to be human so why don't we dedicate  a place for it?
this will be it.
it is hard to explain so just wait and see!

diary of an insomniac: Do's and Don'ts

Don't talk 

just stare 

Don't stare

just kiss

Don't kiss

just lay

Don't lay

just breath

Don't breath

just die!

Because love is dreamy and light

But it is intense and heavy 

Diary Of An Insomniac: Letter on Receipt

Receipt 

I'm looking for something I can never find.

The feeling of the cold burning my body

I can never get back.




PS. I will be taking a month break on the website so I can fix it up. 
so for now it is under construction. don't worry i will still be doing journal entry's like this one and by the time I come back pretentious. tv will be brand new!

Film Still: Irrational Fears

People may call them irrational but there as real to me than ever.

I think about them everyday

constantly

and

  constantly

and 

constantly

All photos taken by Aaliyah Reynolds (a.k.a me)

( PS. I lost the letter)

Soundtrack: Fear of the way you. . .

Do you ever get that feeling of fear that rush's through your brain to your chest? 

Heavy in your chest, but light in you head. 

It's this heat

white hot

Not matter how powerful and scary this feeling is, it's what keeps you going. You can't look away.

It is so much more than adrenalin. 

the fear is what drives me 

If you ever experience this feeling this is the soundtrack for you

*Set list*

Candidate - Joy Division

Alien Observer - Grouper

Night time, My time - Sky Ferreira

Raise The Bells - Folk Implosion

She Lost Control - Joy Division

Everyday - Yo La Tengo

Can We Go Inside Now - Blood Orange

Empty House - Air

Definition: Fear