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Showing posts with label rewind pause fast forward. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rewind pause fast forward. Show all posts

Wednesday, 18 March 2015

Rewind Pause Fast forward: Immobile

Has your life ever moved so fast past you that everything feels 

Still

People screaming at home

Faster.

People laughing as loud as possibly in the hallway

Faster. 

Cars driving past as head lights flash in your eyes one by one

Faster.

Every thought in your mind about your life deafening you at once.

Faster.

Until your body feels immobile.
I have felt this feeling so often that it's normal.
I know it's weird but I can't explain it
I just do it.
Stillness is everywhere.
As I sit in the hallway all of us together but not a word shared, we all sit drifting into our own worlds.
As people go running down the hallway
I can't stop myself from staring, no one noticing  as if they don't even know where they are.
not moving an inch, not worrying about the next class.
just breathing.

I get in these moods were any motion in my body feels unnatural
unwanted 

Laying on my bed with only the hard comforter, while the hue of colour on my wall fills my room as the sun reflects on it.
The sensation of feeling the air fill your lungs and the satisfaction of it leaving your body.
coming together as one.

Tuesday, 27 January 2015

Rewind, Pause, Fast forward: Accept Tears



 Pause ▌▌

Accept Tear
January is the month for the ''new you'' 
"The first chapter of a new book'' its going to be "your" year. But to be fully honest I always fall back into my old ways. January is dull, the sky is concealed with an airy blanket of fog and my life is full of overcast. The earth is disguised to those who don't want accept it. I'm often brought to tears easily by things, I have admitted to my myself that I am a crybaby. To me being a crybaby is really just accepting emotions.
accept, accept, accept


Babies don't feel ashamed of feeling, its a way of communication. No matter where you are from, the sight of a glistened tear is one of the strongest non verbal cue. We are connected by our feelings, I don't feel the need to restrict my self from being connected to emotions and the rest of the world. But I do fear it. Teenage tears can be the worst.







Still From: All the Right Noises

THE STING
PAINTED RED EYE
CHAPPED LIPS
THE FAMILIAR TASTE OF SALTY SADNESS
 The realization that at any moment someone can drown you in your own tears, but worst of all you can submerge yourself in a watery grave of your own sadness. But I want to face my fears, I don't want to waste time missing out on the connection, but I also don't want to suffocate in my own tears.





I just remember to be fully submerged in that moment. 
Feel the way it drips down my face. 
The warmth of my cheeks.

I just want to accept 
accept, accept, accept



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